No Knowing

Sometimes my desire to know this world leads me to know that there is no knowing. There is only remembering. There is only reclaiming. There is only beckoning and welcoming.

 

How can one small body take such meticulous inventory of Her?

Shall I bow in awe?

Or gasp in wonder?

Or howl?

Or hum?

 

The sky exists azure inside the deepest cavern of the heart.

The roots of the oak trees run deep through veins of my legs.

The flowering and feathering of the leaves as sensitive as our ten finger tips.

My eyes as fine as the mouse, and wide like the eagle.

 

All nature rests inside this body.

There is no knowing.

Only remembering.

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The Lies We Share

I want to preface this writing by saying I am not trying to shame, blame, and accuse or guilt trip you, anyone or myself. If you are not interested in a commentary on modern yoga culture stop reading because you won’t like this and you will find me completely arrogant and annoying. Dismantling tangled webs of oppression is hard work. Its nasty, jaw dropping, deal-with-it kind of work. All of us are responsible as far as I am concerned. No one exists outside of the circle. We are all creating and are created by this system. And the yoga industry is a system. When one piece moves, the whole moves. 

I want us all to sincerely look more closely at how and why we market and sell yoga the way we do. Yoga as I learned it has always been about innovation and revolution, often marked by breaking the mold and the status quo by learning so deeply the origin of the thing you question. What I fear deeply based on what I have seen as of late in our yoga industry is a playing by the same old rues of misogyny and patriarchy to get the job of selling done.

There is a reason they say sex sells. They say it because it is true. What this culture--our culture, which we are all creating and being created by--has decided as sexy, can selling anything. It can sell athletes foot cream. It can sell a pen. If you have the right model, looking the right way, with the right airbrushing and the right glimmer then she can sell a pen. Hey the same is true for men. Take his shirt off, oil him down and put a look on his lips and well, you have the best selling pen business ever.

From what I can tell, yoga as a modern movement does not exists outside any of the perils of modern culture. I am sure I am not the first person to remind us all that just as we get social media crazed and over stimulated, yoga as a practice follows the trend. You can post pictures and videos of your yoga practice all day long. You can show off your asana any day and any time, in any outfit. You can flavor your yoga how you like. If you want to get high you can go to any number of yoga festivals. If you want to chaching your credit card, there are ample companies from which to do so. If you want to sing along you can chant all day to accessible mantra recordings any moment of any day. And if you want to find a homegrown studio you can. If you want a grounded teacher who has been doing this a long time you can find them. Its all there in the sea of yoga.

There is always pop culture and fringe culture. And it’s no secret I sort of prefer that latter. I think the best outfit is jeans and a white tee. And I like unsexy yoga. But my hope was to make this piece a little less about preferences and more about a social commentary. But I suppose this commentator has an opinion.

Everyone wants to fit in. There is an ever growing belief that yoga is welcoming to anyone, anything, at any time. Because it as all about union right? No matter how stiff or downtrodden you are you can do yoga. No matter your color or your size. But more and more I find this belief completely untrue. There is a massive phenomenon happening within yoga where less and less of us can actually fit in. I fear so much of the way we offer our offerings ousts any newer, quieter, larger or darker practitioners.

Somewhere along the way yoga has become for skinny white women. No wonder. Skinny white women have the power to sell a pen. The yoga world is also for people who have the disposable income to learn it. Or have access to the Internet. Or who are willing to be social and do partner poses every class. The yoga world is just as catty and cliquey as the Mean Girls world from which I bet most of us actually seek refuge. I find many people calling for equal representations of colors and sizes in the yoga industry but very little follow through. I find it rare that yoga teachers seek to understand the growing socially acceptable pronoun usage. It is 2014. We do not just use the pronouns he and she any more. It’s 2014 and we know that most models used to advertize don’t even exist. You can airbrush anything. And yet, we still insist on representing ourselves to one another and prospective industry buyers on complete binary scales and as if we are all skinny white women who can be bent, twisted, contorted, bought and sold with a smile on our face.

So I am begging us to stop the sexualization and commoditization of yoga. It is not helpful, (unless you want to get rich by playing by the internalized rules of misogyny and patriarchy). I fear we have equated the ever so elegant reclamation of the art of seduction with yoga pornography.

 Sensual and sexual are different from one another. Evocative and creative expression of the body is different than the sexualized sell of it. Look at The Birth of Venus. She is completely sensual. But she isn’t selling sex. To be sexual and to sexually commodify are different. There are many aspects of yoga that are sensual, pleasurable and even erotic. But when you look at the sexualized selling of yoga, it is not the selling of the erotic or sensual, it’s the capitalization and commoditization of the sensual. To sell the eroticism and sensuality of embodiment is different that using sex to sell yoga. Pleasure is imperative to our embodiment and seduction is not dirty. Seduction is the gift of the goddess.

What is unhealthy is the belief that to get what we want (i.e. our product to be purchased) we have to sell our selves according to an industry standard driven by mans lust to have, devour, fuck, own, infatuate, infantilize and glorify. The sickest part is that we have internalized this at such a level we buy in to the whole scheme.

 Internalized oppression occurs when the oppressed group becomes so accustomed to it that they can no longer distinguish the oppressor from themselves. Thereby only continuing to perpetuate the oppressor’s modus operandi. This is an inconvenient truth. Part of the way to dismantle the power is to stop giving it away. At the same time investigate every nook and cranny of where these lies live inside us. How might you do such a thing one might ask? I hear there is a great practice called yoga, which may be beneficial in such endeavors.

 What I find ironic is that yoga has been used as a "cure" for so many ailments. We see everywhere yoga for depression, yoga for anxiety, yoga for body image and yoga for self esteem just to name a few. In fact most yoga business folks would tell you to niche yourself. Perhaps we have become too concerned with proliferating yoga. We keep adding more and more people to the sea of yoga doers that we have stopped being concerned with what is happening to the system internally. I do not so much think that our job is to wake people up anymore so much as it is to keep each other awake. It seems we also keep growing yoga through standards that rather than establish a new possibility of the status quo or offer and alternative to the consumerist objectified madness of commoditization that we just keep using the tactics that have helped other business get traction and money. And those include not a lot of clothing and lot of sex.

 Sadly, we have shit where we eat. We have burned the very thing that could help by indulging again and again standards that were drummed up for packaging. It seems we have pillaged the practice for the sake of a price tag and the paparazzi.

 Studies show that the ways we use, abuse and treat women even through advertising actually makes all afore mentioned "disorders" worse. So then we are in the proverbial Catch-22. We claim yoga heals. But we sell it in it a way that metastasizes the very thing we want to cure.

 I used to think yoga was a cure all. That was before I was willing to look myself honestly in the mirror and understand I was doing yoga but still an addict. That was a tough pill to swallow--a shameful closet to open and stare into. Perhaps I could go through the motions of being a “good” yoga teacher. But I was a sick one. So once I realized you could practice and teach a “healing art” and still be bulimic, I figured out pretty starkly that yoga does not radically cure.

But it can radically shift our perspective. It can radically shake us up by waking us up to the truth of who we are, what we are and how we treat ourselves.

Super Sane Backbends and an Open Heart.

The Context:

I was once watching a video of Mr. Iyengar teaching a yoga class and he was speaking to (no, yelling actually) how we need to wake up every cell of our bodies. Nothing should be sleeping, he said. I am working on different ways to open my shoulder girdle in a more subtle way. I can do the gross actions and get a lot. But, I need something softer, subtler and more refined to romance the heart situation in there. Working more energetically as the impetus to create the action needed for the bend was my approach

Also, as a side note, I have a short neck and it sometimes gets cramped in backbends and I don’t get as much depth into my bend in the upper back because the neck is all scrunched. I figure, well, I would like a longer neck in my backbends. Luckily, the teacher I have been working with at the Iyengar Institute here in Brooklyn, Lara Brunn, seems to be on a similar mission in terms of neck, spine, shoulder girdle, side chest opening through subtle actions with huge results. So I am getting exactly what I asked for when I go to her classes.

This is a sequence I created using some of her instructions as focus and inspiration. What we are really trying to do is get length in the spine. Focus on taking C7, in and up specifically to create the length and the curve. Another way to access the length is to think of the front of the spine lifting and the back of the spine descending which helps you to create that laying back effect. Also the side chest goes forward and the collar bones lengthening wide. There is more but I would have to show you.

The Content:

The sequence took me roughly two hours but I go slowly. You could easily do this in less.

 

Shoulder work with strap – 5min *

Down dog with thumb and forefinger at the wall. **

Handstand- work on it for about 5 minutes

 

Surya Namaskar A 5X

Warrior Salutes variations ***

 

Tadasana

Headstand- 5 min

Pincha Mayurasana- work on it for a few minutes

 

Standing poses from a wide stance ****

 

Trikonasana

Parsvakonasana

Vira 2

Vira 1

Parsvottanasana

Anjaneyasna arm variation 1 *****

Anjaneyasana arm variation 2 ******

 

Supta Virasana -5 min (i would also recommend a weight)

Janu Sirsasana

Ardha Matsyandrasana

Hanumanasana

 

Chatush padasana – 2 or 3 times. Not long, just get the upper back going

Urdvha Danurasana –umm, a lot of them

Dwi pada viparitti dandasana- a lot until diminishing returns

Drop Backs

 

Halasana

Sarvangasana- 5 min

Savasana

 

*this one I would have to show you. But if you know a shoulder therapeutic that helps open the upper back, do it for 5 minutes.

** face the wall and do down dog with your thumb and forefinger pressing into the wall. Keep lifting your arm bones well and strong and release your head. All the good normal legwork applies here too.

*** Riffed from the way I learned it from Christina Sell. Basically do about 8 crescent (or high) lunges but work majorly the length of your spine and moving C7 in and up, the front of the spine up, back of the spine down to create the lift and bend necessary. I pivot side to side like i learned from C.

**** When you work for the wide stance start in Tadasana in the middle of your mat and jump your feet wide. Do both sides of the pose and then jump your feet in. Jump wide for the next pose. Work like that for the transitions. Also when doing the standing poses, how much length can you get without jutting forward of back?

***** This arm variation, set the arms slightly bent and hand facing each other similar to how many drop back start. Work on the top of your shoulders even and back in space as you move your side chest forward and armpit chest up, keep widening your collar bones. Keep flowing the front of the spine up and the back part of the spine down.

****** Same deal as above but now grab the mat behind you and tug. this will help you get your side chest forward. But you don't want to get jammed in the front of the shoulder forward and the trapezius up. Work towards the opposite and you will have to create massive length in the sides of your body.

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